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[Oct. 7th, 2009|04:24 pm] |
because I promised here is a post!
01) Are you currently in a serious relationship? 02) What was your dream growing up? 03) What talent do you wish you had? 04) If I bought you a drink what would it be? 05) Favorite vegetable? 06) What was the last book you read? 07) What zodiac sign are you? 08) Any Tattoos and/or Piercings? Explain where. 09) Worst Habit? 10) If you saw me walking down the street would you offer me a ride? 11) What is your favorite sport? 12) Do you have a Pessimistic or Optimistic attitude? 13) What would you do if you were stuck in an elevator with me? 14) Worst thing to ever happen to you? 15) Tell me one weird fact about you. 16) Do you have any pets? 17) What if I showed up at your house unexpectedly? 18) What was your first impression of me? 19) Do you think clowns are cute or scary? 20) If you could change one thing about how you look, what would it be? 21) Would you be my crime partner or my conscience? 22) What color eyes do you have? 23) Ever been arrested? 24) Bottle or can soda? 25) If you won $10,000 today, what would you do with it? 26) What's your favorite place to hang out at? 27) Do you believe in ghosts? 28) Favorite thing to do in your spare time? 29) Do you swear a lot? 30) Biggest pet peeve? 31) In one word, how would you describe yourself? 32) Do you believe/appreciate romance? 33) Favorite and least favorite food? 34) Do you believe in God? 35) Will you repost this so I can fill it out and do the same for you? |
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| Birthed back into the world |
[Mar. 4th, 2009|02:12 am] |
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| | IUB | ] |
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| | frustrated | ] |
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| | Pachelbel Cannon | ] | I have been home for 3 weeks and I finally feel in a frame of mind that I can post of my doings again. That consists of nothing right now. I think my brain is taking a vacation as well.
But one thing I thin every soldier has to deal with is the inevitable question of how was it over there. Most want me to lie and say it was horrible and I condemn Bush as an evil bastard. But honestly it wasn't too bad. In a way coming home is like the much vauntedbirth of a child. It is wonderful to be able to be given choices and have your voice heard but the security and certainty of your day and identity of self is overwhelming. I miss it truly. |
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| WOW!! |
[Jan. 10th, 2009|08:47 pm] |
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| | need I even say | ] |
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| | horny | ] |
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| | The Rasmus - Black Roses | ] |
Just got one hell of a pick-me-up!!
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| interesting things about myself |
[Jan. 10th, 2009|06:58 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | Iraq..work..sigh | ] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | pensive | ] |
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| | The Rasmus - Ghost of Love | ] | When taking a test the result of my quiz unearthed some unsettling feelings. As much as I want to fully claim it as mine I wonder how much of it is true. I do love to adventure (I wouldn't be in Iraq if I didn't) but more than anything I'm a nest building creature. I love making a space my own and having something permanent to come home to. Soft snuggles and rituals. Just weird thoughts today. Must be the prospect of going home soon! AS well as the unsettling knowledge that I truely have a submissive personality. I like being taken care of, not to worry about the big things. To realize as much as I roar like a tigress I'm just that housecat that lets her humans own her but in reality wouldn't know what to do without there praise and worship.
I have a loving fiance that is exactly what I need and not all at the same time. Enough whining, I'm done now. |
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| How much I suck right now |
[Dec. 5th, 2008|10:56 pm] |
So, I'm sitting at work on my day off and listening to one of my favorite bands play from the new Twilight movie. I think I'm depressed.
One: I can't get siked up form my PT test, I need to pass it. I have absolutely no wish to exercise and better myself. Nevermind I'm beating myself up everyday about the way I look. I hate only one part of my body and that is the love handles/stomach I've developed and can't seem to get rid of. I have to say if only thing comes from my trip far far away it is that I definately don't play well away from others. I'm a horny depressed fat soldier and have absolutely no way to change myself.
Two: I'm only half excited about my wedding at this point. Some part of me is screaming that I will regret doing this...usually when I haven't talked to the hon in a while. And that's the other thing. I'm horrible about talking to him. Sometimes I don't want to be bothered with the pointless facts that will be dribbling from his mouth as soon as a lull comes to our conversation. I just feel tons of hurt. I always act tough but I want to be swept off my feet and get the undying protestions of love. I'll probably laugh but inwardly it will be the first time someone has taken the time and effort to find out what makes me happy; makes me tick and done something about it. I've had to protect so much of my tender self that instinctively I do what is neccessary to make someone else happy and am disappointed when it is not receprecated. I mean I find out what you want, usually through battering ram efforts but never the mind, and no one has bothered to push through my walls and see the inner me that wants to be the pretty pretty princess just once. Growing up, in my very racist school system, I was never the pretty one. The one voted most anything dealing with beauty. I could blow that off and all that schmalze but in all my relationships not once was did I feel like I thought I should. Which is sad. I've had some amazing people love me. Writing my feelings I see that most of it is me. Man I thought I worked through most of this! Guess not.
Anyhoo Three: Money. I'm really bad with it. I mean I finally have the means to point at something and get it right on the spot. No thinking. Which has gotten me some cool things...That I know have to make payments on. So back to the budgeting. I have never thanked god so heartily for my mom before in my life.
I think I'll end otherwise much whining will ensue. And I sure as shit don't tolerate that unless it is bitching for the sack of bitching... No that made no since unless you are me. |
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| (no subject) |
[Nov. 19th, 2008|09:33 am] |
After saying that I would start to update, there was still a long dry spell on this journal. Not because the urge to write has left me but more to the point of OPSEC. Yes I know, Army acronims strike again! But I a lot of my gripes and complaints can't be said because it might affect something else. Do I think I'm being a little 'me-ish' maybe but you don't work where I do and talk to the people I talk to and not learn to keep your mouth shut. So I guess I can attempt to talk around my problems, leaving lots of pitfalls for the unwary, but that would be retarded (yes I went unPC...typically care but this is my journal damnnit and I can do that!). Most of my problem can be attributed to the simple fact that I am ready to come home. I've hit my provincial wall of tolerance and goodwill and I'm all for damning the walls and full speed ahead. But then again I always get like this when it's time for me to leave the place where I have settled and called home, but not to close. Right now I'm less than 90 days out and I can feel the wind pushing against the plane's body soaring me towards home and clothes that aren't a monochrome color. It haunts my dreams and fills my days. I'm lonely for my bed and my family. Lonely for the simple problems of home and not having to watch my tongue and smile kindly at every Iraqi national I meet; yes I do know that inwardly they are maligning me, my country and heritage but god forbid they say it or they might lose all the money our country pours into theirs. I'm tired of their petty fighting about stupid things (who pays for the uniforms of the completely useless traffic cops!! Yes they are useless, I've almost been hit everytime I've stepped foot into a car) but letting the commnon people live in squalor. I came to do and see the good our country does and I have!! Smiling children with new schools we helped build, and little girls having a chance to be more than baby makers! But the shuffling snail pace is excrushiating! But Rome wasn't built in a day, and people can't change a whole culture in 7 years so I grin and bear it, knowing in the end, even if no one praises Mr. Bush, that I say the good that came of this war and no personal sacrifice come easy or with heaps of rewards. So I write my feelings, purging the malignant tumor of repressed rage, smile at Omar, and count one more day off my tour here. 80-some more to go! |
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| Abstract of me |
[Oct. 23rd, 2008|05:18 pm] |
I think when I took this test and got a result i had an ahhh ha moment. The picture is so me and my style. Though the explanation is a bit off!
Many things have changed for me, being in Iraq has changed me for better or for worse. My fiance was right, I am a new person here. I think I will update this more often. I have much to get off my chest.
Your result for What Your Taste in Art Says About You Test... Non-conformist, Visionary, and Independent3 Abstract, -2 Islamic, 2 Ukiyo-e, -4 Cubist, -2 Impressionist and -10 Renaissance! 
Abstract art uses a visual language of form, color and line to create a composition which exists independently of what may appear to others as visual realities. Western had been underpinned by the logic of perspective and an attempt to reproduce an illusion of visible reality. It allowed the progressive thinking artists to show a different side to the world around them. By the end of the 19th century many artists felt a need to create a 'new kind of art' which would encompass the fundamental changes taking place in technology, science and philosophy. Abstract artists created art that was diverse and reflected the social and intellectual turmoil in all areas of Western culture. People that chose abstract art as their preferred artform tend to be visionsaries. They see things in the world around them and in people that others may miss because they look beyond what is visual only with the eye. They rely on their inner thoughts and feelings in dealing with the world around them instead of on what they are told they should think and feel. They feel freed from the tendancy to be bound by traditional thought and experiences. They look more toward their own ideas and experiences than what they are told by their religious upbringing or from scientific evidence. They tend to like to prove theories themselves instead of relying on the insight or ideas of others. They are not bound by common and mundane, but like to travel and have new experiences. They value intelligence, but they also enjoy a challenge. They can be rather argumentative when they are being forced or feel as if they are being forced to conform. Take What Your Taste in Art Says About You Test at HelloQuizzy |
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| Catching up to do |
[Oct. 15th, 2007|09:10 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | my room | ] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | accomplished | ] |
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| | none...suprisingly | ] | well lots has happened since i last posted. i've moved twice to diffrent units and i'm being deployed in March. I leave end of Oct. to do some training in Ft. Meade Maryland. I have wireless now so i can talk waaay more. I'm serious about my guy, gonna live together when i get back and planning for a baby. Oh and Sets put to rest any lingering first love feelings...le sigh but it was good for me. Oh and i'm typing on my new Toshiba laptop. Yay!!! Oh and i'm tiger striped right now..my hair that is. First time my boyfriend is dating a blonde..black he is familiar with.
Tootles!
Lord and Master of the Camo colored space cows...who are addicted to Drawn Together (so wrong..but so right) |
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| Some Drill Sargeants need to go Home |
[Jan. 8th, 2007|11:59 am] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | bitchy | ] |
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| | none..damn army | ] | So as i'm sneaking this journal entry in and trying not to get caught (nasty little things Article 15's) there really isn't much i want to talk about. I hate AIT, its worse than basic...yes somehow someway it is worse...probably because of a certain drill sargeant by the name of Evan aka PMSing Demonboy.
He pretty much punishes everyone for a few peoples mistakes; its suppose to build team togetherness or some other shit like that but all its doing for me is making me say fuck it!!! I just will arrive exactly on time, not 10 min early because we're just going to get smoked anyway! And if it continues i'll just be late all together.
So right now hating what i'm doing but i get 10 gees outta this so hurray for Feb. 15 Graduation Day!!!!!! |
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| day is just sucky |
[Aug. 30th, 2006|03:44 pm] |
guess what? i'm ugly!!
Well no more fiance because he was tired of feeling guilty for not putting me first in his life/not having enough time for me and he didn't want to compound his mistake by having sex with me and i should really wait till i'm married like i wanted to do it.
ie: i'm fat and ugly, wouldn't give it up fast enough and he has gone on to greener and skinnier pastures.
i should want to say fuck you and move on but...i just want to curl into a little ball and well...bawl!
i have never been more greatful for a change in my life til now. i can't wait till the 19th when i can go and come back and be all hard muscled and beautiful then tell him to take a flying fuck off the nearest jet engine..oh and get shredded too!
i should have just stuck with girls.
The priestess has taken a hiatus from the Cow to go think up demonically evil things to do to ex boyfriends...that and stick a couple pins in his voodoo doll. oh i think i hear him screaming...he he he |
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| (no subject) |
[Aug. 17th, 2006|12:04 pm] |
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| | contemplative | ] | well its official i'm in the military and i ship out for Basic on Sept. 19.
i'm scared and so excited...but i have to lose some more pounds...damn physical.
FlameQueen |
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| nah nah no tellling yet |
[Aug. 1st, 2006|11:59 pm] |
well i lied. i'm not telling "yes you nick no matter how you bitch me out deal w/ it...none the less i'm talking to you }]"
anyway not much happens to me..my bf is possibly cheating, i'm definately (sp) cheating w/ a certain someone and i think when i get my news it is capute w/ me and the bf.
now i'm depressed so i'm going to stop now.
Bowing down in sorrow at the shrine of my wond'udder'ful cow goddess Geb...she decided to expand her herizons...go figure...it is the very cold Flame Goddess Rei
FlameQueen Rei |
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[Jul. 31st, 2006|10:08 pm] |
At first i was horrified than i thought about it and it made lots of sense...figure! Also i might have some news tomorrow about something so i'm just waiting till the guy calls me back...man its been 11 days of exercising my ass off and now i'm down to biting my nails.
JUST FUCKING CALL ALREADY!!!!!!! GRRRRrrrrr....pant...man i need to worship in my fav temple in cooooow town. peace out yall....and i can't believe i just said that...so wrong...so very very wrong.
Rei
With Which Harry Potter Male Are You Most Sexually Compatible? |
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| (no subject) |
[Jul. 23rd, 2006|01:26 pm] |


i wanted to get them all but i decided not to be greedy. ON another note: Aug 1 is special for another reason. All my paperwork should be done and....well i'll tell on Aug 1 what i'm waiting for. |
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| (no subject) |
[Jul. 15th, 2006|10:43 pm] |
yeah right!!!
| Your Kissing Purity Score: 51% Pure |  For you, kissing isn't a casual thing
Lip to lip action makes your heart sing |
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| (no subject) |
[May. 29th, 2006|01:03 am] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | and too damn hot! | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | dripping faucet | ] | It's my bday!!!! Yay! 21 beyatchs!!!! |
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| (no subject) |
[May. 25th, 2006|10:18 pm] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | drained | ] |
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| | Shiki no Uta | ] | God i love being a Gemini!! Just by changing one answer i get this one!
You Are Absinthe!
You have a unique personality. Although most like you, sometimes you take some getting used to. You can be a bit strong. You are full of energy and sometimes flamboyant. You are the life of the party but if people are not careful you can knock them on their ass. What Naughty My Little Pony Are You?
And here is my other one!
You Are Subversion!
You are systematic and secretive. Sometimes even very calculating. Most everyone trusts you but they have no idea what really goes on in your head. You are capable of being nice or mean, whatever a situation calls for. You look out for #1. What Naughty My Little Pony Are You?
Yeah in the real world PCA classes are kicking my everylovin behind and i need some play time w/ Angel!! Horny girl now...anyway not much diffrent other than i seriously need sleep. Well that and my bday is on Memorial Day on Mon. 21!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I'm too damn tired to do a sign off. bai bai |
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| Temptation |
[May. 9th, 2006|12:16 pm] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | thoughtful | ] |
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| | 89X | ] | well Angel is back, the girl i screwed around with (Nick knows who she is) and she tempts like before...and this time i want to be good to my boyfriend. He's so sweet and kind and the only thing i could think on is that i could run around with her anytime now. And she has a boyfriend too (not that that stopped anything last time) and she hasn't even given me a glance...there i go getting my hopes (and libido) up again.
Anyway more training for me so i can get in the hospital. Just so friggin lazy right now.
Also love Kazuki and Jubei (Getbackers) WAI!!! Love Love!
Rei-chan Queen of Flame, lazy sow and all around broke supplicant of the Cow Goddess
P.S i am a Bike finatic! 3mi yesterday...go me! |
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| (no subject) |
[Apr. 22nd, 2006|07:28 pm] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | tired | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | la la la | ] | i'm all done with my CNA courses so whipee me!!!! but i have stupid summer class...all the summer long....ewwww!!!!
FlameQueen One very tired supplicant of the cow goddess |
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